Shouldn’t she have felt unbelievable joy when saying the words I love you?
She loved him didn’t she? Isn’t that why she said it to him? Or could she be so cruel as to say I love you and not mean it?
No she must have felt something or else these words wouldn’t have escaped her lips…
Lengthy conversations online turned into phone calls… mostly him calling her… but never the less she answered those phone calls and engaged him in conversations that not only made him feel closer to her but made him if possible love her even more.
She never mentioned this so called relationship to her best friend… how could she… she didn’t even know what she was doing… except maybe gradually building up her ego…
She was always known for being honest and straight forward yet somehow she couldn’t bring herself to tell him that she didn’t really know what she was feeling…
Then again what did she know about love? what it was or even what it felt like… so she lied to herself… she said she loved him… and believed it
He spoke about marriage and the perfect honeymoon and he even went as far as picking out baby names…
She was dumbstruck she couldn’t just scream out STOP although she wanted to, the small white lies she thought hurt no one started to show their scars on him and it was becoming harder for her to pull free from the web she had so carelessly woven.
But she kept thinking maybe I do love him maybe I’m just being overwhelmed by all this attention and care from one person.
She was the youngest of her siblings and quite accustomed to being taken care off although with her personality she didn’t need that care…
She somehow found it a sign of weakness maybe a sign of defeat when she said the words “I need help”
Good God she thought to herself I am quite messed up…
Maybe the love would have grown inside her if only they had more time but alas fate is quite cruel… the moment she felt comfortable enough with him the moment she felt at ease with what she chose to believe, in walks the person that would turn her world upside down…
In walks the person that would make her feel things she never knew she could… make her wonder bout things she never knew existed…
Walks in a stranger she never imagined to care for.
She loved him didn’t she? Isn’t that why she said it to him? Or could she be so cruel as to say I love you and not mean it?
No she must have felt something or else these words wouldn’t have escaped her lips…
Lengthy conversations online turned into phone calls… mostly him calling her… but never the less she answered those phone calls and engaged him in conversations that not only made him feel closer to her but made him if possible love her even more.
She never mentioned this so called relationship to her best friend… how could she… she didn’t even know what she was doing… except maybe gradually building up her ego…
She was always known for being honest and straight forward yet somehow she couldn’t bring herself to tell him that she didn’t really know what she was feeling…
Then again what did she know about love? what it was or even what it felt like… so she lied to herself… she said she loved him… and believed it
He spoke about marriage and the perfect honeymoon and he even went as far as picking out baby names…
She was dumbstruck she couldn’t just scream out STOP although she wanted to, the small white lies she thought hurt no one started to show their scars on him and it was becoming harder for her to pull free from the web she had so carelessly woven.
But she kept thinking maybe I do love him maybe I’m just being overwhelmed by all this attention and care from one person.
She was the youngest of her siblings and quite accustomed to being taken care off although with her personality she didn’t need that care…
She somehow found it a sign of weakness maybe a sign of defeat when she said the words “I need help”
Good God she thought to herself I am quite messed up…
Maybe the love would have grown inside her if only they had more time but alas fate is quite cruel… the moment she felt comfortable enough with him the moment she felt at ease with what she chose to believe, in walks the person that would turn her world upside down…
In walks the person that would make her feel things she never knew she could… make her wonder bout things she never knew existed…
Walks in a stranger she never imagined to care for.
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